omg, such a strange day, well, i was told to ring a friend and when i did i found out someone was looking for me via postal thingy on freak fm website,which i was stunned at and didn't get,im used to being ignored and no one bothering to talk to me, which i dont mind,but when i found out a guy i had met was looking for me i was all awwwww.... [LINE] his name is trevor,i met him last week in fred zeplins and gave him my number,well,just to show how unfair things are my phone got put into the washing machine and he proberly thought i was a major bitch for ignoreing him,but it turns out he was looking for me,how weird is that?check it out http://www.freakfm.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=872" title="http://www.freakfm.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=872" target="_blank"http://www.freakfm.com/forum/... [LINE]
damn,it feels like forever since i posted a blog,lately since i posted last post things have lighted up a bit for me,i realise i have just two weeks left in school,and you have no idea how happy that makes me! its like...YAY! hehe..im so happy. :D [LINE] i've got some summer ahead of me, damn, first..i got my LCA most important test of my life .< then inbetween i got my Red Hot Chilli Pepper concert WHOOP! then i am going to lourds..and somewere in between there..i have no date yet, my friend from england is coming to visit !! YAY!! which im really excited about,i love meeting my online friends>[LINE] ima make a new layout..gonna pic a mana picture..comeing soon..hehe
oh my god..what the hell is wrong with me today,i woke up this morning and felt like i was going to die, i wanted to scream, shout, smash up my room...first it was anger, then i just wanted to cry, which obviously grabbed the attention of my parents, which i did not want to happen, my dad is upset enough with his neice dieing and my mum, well, i couldn't tell her why i was depressed because it would more then likely upset her,ok ,he's the deal. [LINE] i was fine all week untill my dad gave me a phone call while shopping and told me my cousin *his niece* died, i didn't know her too well so it did't effect me that much, but soon after i got home it got me to thinking about my nan, who died 2 years ago...and then it started, i was feeling down, hateing myself for not going to see her before she died,hateing myself for being to much of a chicken shit to go and see her grave, i fear if i go i will break down and cry my eyes out and never be able to get over it again, i nearly had a nearvous breakdown after she died, i spend my entire life living in the same house as her and spent so many nights talking to her, watching tv with her and everything else...
omg ...i swear...im crying even typeing this...its so hard for me to talk about it, but in the end i broke down and told my parents finnaly why i was always seeming so depressed,its so hard still for me to deal with her death,i loved her so much...omg...i have to stop...this is so upsetting
my mum and dad are takeing me to see her grave and it will be the first time in a year i went and i am so frightened about going there, its stupid i know...but..i cant help it [LINE] im so sorry for going on like this, i juat had to write about this somewhere, and writeing in these blogs help me alot of times really, so..if any of you see me as pathetic and stupid then do so..but please..have a heart and dont leave any nasty comments, im upset enough as it is...so be nice....[LINE]
omg freaking sweet goshers...i actually got my header working!!! WHOOP!! hehe...im so happy...and also with other stuff i added, i have codes for my fanlists i am apart of, Dearlings *gackt ^_^* Agony *mana* and one for Kozi...its great..i love them, and my mcdonalds image and smurfy dude..hehe...i love them too
new background..Miyavi..such a cool image..attitude and good looks..damn..he's so cool..okies..thats all..
hehehe...i gots me a new guestbook!! yay?? sign please, even if you wanna call me a weird gackt loving japanese speaking freaky bitch...i would love that!!! lol..cause am proud of my lovely gackt and my funny japanese speaking ways AND my bitchy comments, so..there..TAKE THAT! :? *forgot who she was giving out to*
oh...my...lordy...meh, .< sweet devine mercy my head,ok..first off, gotta tell ya, fat frogs rule! well...i think..lol,i love them!ok..i'll start from..eh..the start? lol>[LINE] [i]the start[/i] [LINE] Got dressed,duh,found a top i lost,lovely angel top thingy,wore some lovely hanging kinda style skirt with my red and black stripped tights and had my hair all done up *new colour red and black* and looked lovely if i do say so my self....heh [LINE][i] Bars and what happened[/i] [LINE] i met up with a german dude who told me the story of his jacket,yes,jacket,which had all spikes over it,badges,brouches,leaper fur stuff in the back,and all leather for the rest,cost him 400 hundred to make and he let me try it on!! whoop, shit it was heavy, but i loved it, then then!!! i met a guy, well, not really,stared at him for the whole night,he looked like orlando bloom! omg, SEXY!!! and the fucker german dude kept pointing to him and saying all loud *sonya is that who you like!!!???* and i was all AHHH!! SHUT UP!!!! *dies* oh well..i didn't get to talk to him, this was in fred zeplins
The Quad
I went here and met up with a girl i met last week *she's cute lol* and met with two of her friends and then...thanks to my friend who obviously wanted me pissed for the night ..fat frog is..uh..WKD smirnoff ice and Bacardi breezer all in one big pint glass,well, lovely!! then...lol...my god how stupid
The Trolley
Fucking hell....the girls friend,found a trolley,and was all *hey girls hop in* we was going back to his place to watch a movie at like , half 3 in the morning, and i was all YAY! okies..well..i got in, the girl behind me holding on to keep me there and off we went, lasted about...damn...10 seconds ...before BANG! we went flying after he ran into a path,me go bye bye and ended up ripping my lovely tights,big bloddy patch on them cause i skinned my knee,but got a kiss and hug of the guy who drove the trolley so was all happy,went back to his place then to wath the movie...damn...i loved it...what a night...
^_^ i just wanted to post this again...cause...well...i love gackt and hyde!! lol .< and besides..i got all the movie now *weeps over the ending* but aint telling ya what happens...heh>
alright...fine...since no one answered my last blog entry i will ask again,does anyone know how to change the header? please help out here cause i am getting so annoyed by the stupid no image shown thingy untop untop of my blog,i cant seem to replace it with another image,come on,be nice,help me out...please? [LINE]
Hey,iv'e finished my work experiance for those of you that care,and yes...i survived it,somehow,even though it was highly boring sometimes and i felt like falling asleep but i have to admit i did enjoy the company of the people,and i got two italian pen pals out of it so im really happy about that! ^_^ [LINE]
.< alright i know im getting a bit excited with changeing all the layout and stuff like that all the time but i have waaaaayyyy to many images to just stick to one background! :shock: >[LINE] My last two backgrounds were of Toshiya, Which i did love, But now its Mana time again, he's to cool, i couldn't not use him for my background for long lol, i changed the colour too, went for blue *mana's fav colour* sad i know but hey hehehe...it looks all perdy ^_^ [LINE] thats it for now, i just wanted to post this for my own little odd reasons heh, so like...enjoy?
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oh wait, no, i actually need help with my blog, i ...no matter how many times i update this, cant get the header working, i try use an image from the Photo bucket thing and i have such a cool header for my blog damn it!!!! i really want it to work but no matter what i do it wont work!! :cry: so can someone pllleeeeaaasseee! help me out here?? please? heh...come on, be nice, leave some comments, you know you want to..
omg .< such a bad day, its cold, gloomy, (must be as i am living in ireland :roll: ) and im like freaking out cause i have nohing to do, my head is like...killing me, baaaadddd headache, and i feel like ima fall asleep, which is bugging me cause i shouldn' be falling asleep cause im in my work placement!!!! omg >.[LINE] no one is in today, im all like, where is everyone!!! lol, i got a phone call from that idiot teacher that supervises me on work experiance and was all GET OFF THE DAMN PHONE!! but had to listen to her blab away about how i dont work, how i need to work more how she had work PLANNED for me when i get back to damn school! ima have a nearvous breakdown before i do my leaving cer because of that bitch .< I HATE HER SO MUCH!!!!> [LINE] i need to chill out...i hate being in a bad mood, *goes to listen to some music on her diskman,is aloud to do that in this work place*
im bored...like thats anything new,heh,im always damn bored,im just glad im on my work experiance cause its somthing to do [LINE] oh...my....god....i spend he whole weekend sleeping,lol,seriously,it s not even funny,i got up to give my mum a hug and a card and was all"right then...have a nice day out" and went back to bed .< lol.>[LINE] iv'e a new addiction,linkin park...lol...its so scary,i cant stop listening to a CD by them,my little cousin loves them and put on their Cd while she was in my house which was i think last monday and now i cant stop listening to them!!! mainly songs
easier to run breaking the habbit from the inside numb
go ahead...tell me how dumb i am lol .< *expects to me mocked by all the major goths put there* this is ssssoooo bad for my reputation as a rough stuck up bitch lol j/k> am not stuck up...or rough
:D I love my new layout, well, background, Toshiya is so adorable!!! dont you just love that guy?? i also changed my font style and colour and really likes how it looks now..so...yay!! [LINE] Happy St.Patricks day!!!((or late happy st.patrics day)) ahh help, my head is killing me, i was out till like...3am last night?? damn it .< and was drinking wkd, that stuff wrecks my head lol, i cant handle drink atall, i went to fred zeplins first and met some dude with like a spike in his chin that said i was all ...eh...pouty and sexy?? eeeeeppp!! RUN AWAY!! i was all dude! get away from me!! and he said he loved my lips ??? O_o scary.> i then went to freakscene and met up with one guy from my street i had not seen in ages, which rocked! and i spent most the night trying to find a guy for him to meet (make out with lol) cause he's Bi lol, he's jus too cute though hehehe [LINE] i then woke up this morning and was like...oooowwww ...my head, and i had to go to god damn WORK!!! im on my work experiance and my feet were killing me from danceing alll night so i put on a pair of runners instead of my boots and walked off to work after forceing down a breakfast, cause i just could not eat anything, gah .< ...>[LINE] WTF! this is one long damned entry, im soooorrryy!! i had to much to type about lol, anyways... JA!
im doing some very important exams today,for my leaving cert,these exams help me get into college and this is just a practice run to see how we do,im so nervous,im only on the first damn day!! :cry: [LINE] Today i had english and computers,i so failed english,i know it *sigh* oh well...
I just added a new link to my blog, and *gulp* its my art .< *hides* i am very nervous and shy about showing people my art because even though i get told i am good at drawing i still think my art looks dumb, the link brings you to the page where i store most of my images for Tblog,the art thing contains mainly painted and pencil made art things by me, and one picture i edited on my computer *which i like alot* here is one image to show you what i mean>[LINE] .< i was gonna put somthing here to show you what im talking about but its not working ,so go to the link on the left side of the blog and check out the page,tell me what you think after you see them.> *hides from any mean comments she expects to get*[LINE]
I thought it was about time i did a review on these two sites
[u]MSN[/u]
i spent five years rping on Msn and was always disapointed by the service there,there was always none stop updates,system problems and other crap,plus the last update to the service really left all rpers in a major rut, MSN got rid,completely of its chat service. this was a bad thing for anyone who really liked to do rp on this site and the only thing to do was for rp communities to chat on the comm, which was hard cause if you didn't have a certain person on your IM list you had no way of telling them when you where in the chat room, you may put a message on the message board but that was about it,but it was hard for people in other time zones to you to make it there at that time, so it was well confuseing. but now there is a new and cool way to rp!! :D [LINE]
[u]EyeChat:[/u]
I really really like this site, its kinda new and really needs new people to join it for it to get more rp things into it,alot of MSN Regect rps have come here and my freind moved his own rp here |~ThE_RaVeN~| hehe, a really cool rp based in a Gothic New York Night Club, i can never really make it online to rp much, its run by a character named Razan, hes loopy and crazy and totally cool , and japanese, so, FUN! heheh.
[u]Diffrences:[/u]
Well ,the chat rooms are the same as MSN , but its completely free, it doesn't have communites or anything like this, its nothing but chat rooms, well, mostly.
The profiles are alot diffrent,space wise,in MSN you had to reduce your profiles if they were to long which ,or atleast i think, was stupid and mean, cause i had rather complex characters and had alot to say about them, and could only put in a few lines :x
you can stay loged in for as long as you want, no annoying sign in now or log in or whatever,when you sign in for the first time you can click on *stay loged in* and you stay in that account for as long as you like,i like that,since i only mainly use one character anyways.
to sign up you have to register first,give them a valid email address so they can send you a email to confirm your registration. it may take some time,may take no time,depends on your internet conection. [LINE]
I advice all Rpers to join here and become a member, because its a really good site ,and it may seem confuseing at the start but you'll get used to it
i got a valentines card today from a secret admirer, but thing is i have been getting them for three years now, man,i'd love to know who sends them. i kinda know the writeing from somewhere,but im still a bit confused about it :? [LINE] Im going out tonight to fred zeplins, some heavy metal,rock music kinda place, well, pub, and some guy i know *friend* but really nice told me he was coming but would be half an hour late, cause he is getting me somthing ^_^ how Kawai, i cant wait to see what he is getting me. [LINE]
I finished my task today!!! YAY!! oh my god that thing went on forever man...i thought i'd freak if i heard the word evaluation again! :x ...anyhow..it looks pretty impresive ,really,im very pleased with how it turned out.[LINE]
yet again i am in school,i had another task interview today for meditation classes i taught the first years in my school,it went really,really well. the interviewer person was so nice,she made it very easy for me to do[LINE] im takeing a half a day damn it,im tired...im going home at lunch time...im watching murder she wrote (ok..i like that show ...who cares?) and then im going to bed to get some well needed sleep...so there!..lol
i am so bored,i mean really,usually i get bored,then..it passes,but today is just,major boredness...hell..what the hell is going on today :shock: [LINE]
we had a half day from school today,like every wednesday,we only had five classes and had 4 damn free classes,and i forgot my book so i was just sitting there...freaking out the student teacher we had by just stareing at them and saying nothing...just like..stttaarrree...hehe..was kinda funny. [LINE] ah well..might find somthing to do later....
one person ONE PERSON!! thats all i got from this place?? well fine then, i dot like you anymore, so THERE! [LINE] the results... Gackt 2(plus my vote) tetsu 0 HA! Klaha 0 :( thats kinda sad [LINE] Dir en grey 1 Eve of Destiny 0 Moi Dix Mois 1(my vote) [LINE]
Kozi 1 (my vote) Toshiya 0 Kyo 1 [LINE] Gackt 1 (my vote) all the rest Zero except Hyde Hyde 1 [LINE] Bel air 0 Bara no Konrei 0 Moonchild 2!! (plus my vote) [LINE] illuminanti+Drain away win ....both 1 vote each [LINE]
There you go, i am in Computer class right now, nooo so to early to be on a computer! TO EARLY! oh well..instead of saying hello to you all i say OHIYO! (thinks thats how you spell it) its like...9 somthing here AM..heheh...and im bored already,man school drains the spirit , anyhow...
My cousin made such a rude comment to me yesterday on my msn messanger thing....*and yes...i just remembered it now* he said...after i told him i was watching my downloaded so far bit of MoonChild that he has got to get me a Anti-Jap Pill...oi..what an insult...SO WHAT IF I LIKE JAPANESE GUYS!!! :shock: [LINE] [b][u] Test[/u][/b]
I am just doing this cause i is all curious...its ..the..JROCK TEST!!
Who sings better?: Klaha Tetsu Gackt
Who rocks harder?: Dir en grey Eve of destiny Moi dix Moix
Who is freakiest? Koji(eve of destiny) Toshiya(Dir en grey) Kyo(Dir en grey)
WHO BEATS ALL!!:
Gackt Hyde MANA Kami Klaha Yuki *he is so cool in Bara No Konrei* Kozi Kyo Die Toshiya
Best Jrock kind of movie or with jrocky person in it? Bel air(malice mizer) Bara no Konrei MOONCHILD!
Best Jrock Video: Illuminanti Shiroi Obscure Umbrella aint afraid to die Vanilla U+k Beast of blood Drain away
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thats my little test...i just want to see what you all think...post comments for your answers and on sunday i will post the results..if i dont get enough answers...ill wait till monday[LINE]
Oh .....My.....Lordy.... :shock: confused....oh so so so confused...ok...here we go[LINE] yesterday i had a unfortunate agrument with my friend, she got all upset cause that ...that...grrrr...AMA!! *will say it in japanese just incase she reads this* who will remain nameless said i was saying stuff behind her back and she got all upset with me and was like "i am not going to Red Hot Chilli Peppers with you" :shock: !!!! NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! *weeps* oh sweet mother of mercy , i was so ANGRY!! that AMA! came in and was all like "hello..is everyone ok " and i was seriously gonna stab her in the eyes with my pen! i was gonna ...gonna...grrr..do somthing so SO! not ..nice..*nods*[LINE]
Then today i got a txt message with my friend saying , she though about it, not worth falling out over and is going with me to the concert...i was like...eh? STOP WITH THE MIND MESSING STUFF ALREADY!!! ...oh Lordy....Help? [LINE]
I dont know what to do now.... :roll: this is soooo not fitting in with my pefect little blahness world...*sigh*[LINE]
25%!!! 25%!!!! :D YAAAAAAAYYY whoop! Gackt looks so damn HOT in this movie, i love in the scence (at the start) where he is doing all this shooting and hyde jumps down off some truck he was sitting untop of after gackt ran out of amo and looked at his *cool* jacket that had bullet holes in it and was like "Oi.." and some other stuff in japanese which i think meant look at your jacket, I think gackt yells somthing like THATS MY FAVORITE JACKET DAMN YOU!! cause gackt gets all pissed and goes like SUPER! gackt and yells somthing and goes shooting like mad with his other gun at some guys...woooohoooo COOL! hyde sounds like he says Jackie Chan then...lol...or mabey its just my ears O_o[LINE] [LINE] Also....there is a scence...where a guy gets totally stoned...and he works in a fish shop...and he has these really cool and funny big ass red glasses *hehehehe...funny* and he sees a really big fish flying around his head...meh heh STONED!! i love that though...then some guys comes looking for money and gackt gets all pissed off again and is like I HAVE MONEY, LEAVE STONEY ALONE!!! O_O lol! [image]chihei_134574221.jpg[/image] [LINE]
Im in school right night, :? mehhhhh...nooooooo!!!! its ok i guess, im in computers *duh* and i finished, or i think i finished, some task thingy for my Leaving cert, i did computer class, was fun ^_^[LINE]
Today i spent half of after the 1:00pm break looking for my stupid pencil case, that damned thing doesn't like me very much IT KEEPS RUNNING AWAY!!! and what makes me feel extra stupid was it was in a desk in a room that i already had a class but had left to go LOOKING for that stupid pencil case!! :evil: Its was hideing under a desk...grrrrrr!!!![LINE]
me and my friend spend all lunch listening to a red hot chilli pepper CD i bought yesterday, and we like freaked out everytime By the way came on and where like :IT IS SO COOL WE ARE SEEING THESE GUYS LIVE!!!: Lol...oh well...4 months to go...no big deal.... :? [LINE]
i gots to go now....bell for home time is about to go, its like...4 pm or somthing ...
I went to see Scary Movie 3 today, man...FUUUNNNYY ..well..most of it, some bits just made no sence what so ever, i just love when your man prentending to be the know it all dude from the matrix mixed up with The Ring says (i suppose about Samara) "she was evil, she drove the horses crazy,killed the cat and hid the remote..some crazy Sh*t" LOL man i love that![LINE]
My friend dermit brought me to a shop, i wanted to buy a White Stripes Cd (yes i like white stripes SO! :evil: ) and he was all "oh ...i know this place where you get all this cheap stuff and so on and we went there..and it was some shop called vibes and scribes, and had all this really REALLY cool stuff in it, i found a Lord of the rings book for like...only 5 euro, then we went upstairs to a place where i seriously think they floorboards where out to get me...they like were creaking, and seemed like they were gonna break every time i stepped on them! SCARY MAN!!!! i didnt find white stripes though *murders dermit* but i didnt find a Red Hot Chilli Pepper Cd for 17 euros. so i bought ...and was well happy for that, so there..great[LINE]
I am going to see Chilli Peppers In concert in Dublin, and i cant wait for it, buying the tickets for it on wednesday, hopeing the tickets are still on sale .< lol...today my Moonchild thingy is on 19% YAYNESS!!! ..>[LINE]
Thats all then....LOVE GACKT!!
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According to Chinese customs to
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respectively by
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such that everyone
has a birthpet
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omg, such a strange day, well, i was told to ring a friend and when i did i found out someone was looking for me via postal thingy on freak fm website,which i was stunned at and didn't get,im used to being ignored and no one bothering to talk to me, which i dont mind,but when i found out a guy i had met was looking for me i was all awwwww....