omg, such a strange day, well, i was told to ring a friend and when i did i found out someone was looking for me via postal thingy on freak fm website,which i was stunned at and didn't get,im used to being ignored and no one bothering to talk to me, which i dont mind,but when i found out a guy i had met was looking for me i was all awwwww.... [LINE] his name is trevor,i met him last week in fred zeplins and gave him my number,well,just to show how unfair things are my phone got put into the washing machine and he proberly thought i was a major bitch for ignoreing him,but it turns out he was looking for me,how weird is that?check it out http://www.freakfm.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=872" title="http://www.freakfm.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=872" target="_blank"http://www.freakfm.com/forum/... [LINE]
damn,it feels like forever since i posted a blog,lately since i posted last post things have lighted up a bit for me,i realise i have just two weeks left in school,and you have no idea how happy that makes me! its like...YAY! hehe..im so happy. :D [LINE] i've got some summer ahead of me, damn, first..i got my LCA most important test of my life .< then inbetween i got my Red Hot Chilli Pepper concert WHOOP! then i am going to lourds..and somewere in between there..i have no date yet, my friend from england is coming to visit !! YAY!! which im really excited about,i love meeting my online friends>[LINE] ima make a new layout..gonna pic a mana picture..comeing soon..hehe
oh my god..what the hell is wrong with me today,i woke up this morning and felt like i was going to die, i wanted to scream, shout, smash up my room...first it was anger, then i just wanted to cry, which obviously grabbed the attention of my parents, which i did not want to happen, my dad is upset enough with his neice dieing and my mum, well, i couldn't tell her why i was depressed because it would more then likely upset her,ok ,he's the deal. [LINE] i was fine all week untill my dad gave me a phone call while shopping and told me my cousin *his niece* died, i didn't know her too well so it did't effect me that much, but soon after i got home it got me to thinking about my nan, who died 2 years ago...and then it started, i was feeling down, hateing myself for not going to see her before she died,hateing myself for being to much of a chicken shit to go and see her grave, i fear if i go i will break down and cry my eyes out and never be able to get over it again, i nearly had a nearvous breakdown after she died, i spend my entire life living in the same house as her and spent so many nights talking to her, watching tv with her and everything else...
omg ...i swear...im crying even typeing this...its so hard for me to talk about it, but in the end i broke down and told my parents finnaly why i was always seeming so depressed,its so hard still for me to deal with her death,i loved her so much...omg...i have to stop...this is so upsetting
my mum and dad are takeing me to see her grave and it will be the first time in a year i went and i am so frightened about going there, its stupid i know...but..i cant help it [LINE] im so sorry for going on like this, i juat had to write about this somewhere, and writeing in these blogs help me alot of times really, so..if any of you see me as pathetic and stupid then do so..but please..have a heart and dont leave any nasty comments, im upset enough as it is...so be nice....[LINE]
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omg, such a strange day, well, i was told to ring a friend and when i did i found out someone was looking for me via postal thingy on freak fm website,which i was stunned at and didn't get,im used to being ignored and no one bothering to talk to me, which i dont mind,but when i found out a guy i had met was looking for me i was all awwwww....